My Secret Dreamworld*

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T14:38:00.001+08:00

"HNY."

That's all in the message of this particular guy. I was like heny? Hany? Honey? Horny?

Ape salahnye tulis penuh. Message box kan tkde limit words. Ni sah generasi twitter. Kwang3x.

Anyway good morning yaw! Hari ni telah ku bangun awal seawal 6.14pagi menikmati udara pagi di Changkat setelah kota itu berparti sepanjang malam. Pasti nyenyak ketiduran pengunjung2 kelab tersebut pd pagi yg indah ini.

Seperti kebanyakan org, i also want to present my new year resolution to the world.

Jeng jeng jeng..

Azam 2012:

1. Solat 5 waktu.
Kedengaran seperti senang tp dengan pekerjaan yang memenatkan memang terasa kesedikitan kelalaian untuk menunaikan fardu. Cabaran yg terbesar pabila pulang dr double shift mlm2 yg dlm fikiran cume katil, katil, katil. Dan besoknye seperti yg telah dimimpikan akan la terlajak bangun ke tengahari dan impian bersubuh itu hanyalah menjadi impian. Selain tu bile patient ramai sangat nk kena attend, bukan solat je tk sempat, kencing makan pun tk smpt. The purpose to let the world know bukan ingin membangga berbuat dosa tetapi mengharapkan doa kalian supaya daku sentiase terjaga dan mempunyai kudrat untuk menunaikan yg wajib.

2. Khatam al-quran.
Keranenye semakin la hati ini gelap kurang sabar asik nk marah. Oleh itu ade baiknye juge cube2 la baca ayat Allah tu hari2. Banyak fadilatnye. Jadi lebih sabar, terang hati, murah rezeki, banyak pahala, disayangi Allah. Moh moh semua. Anyway, last khatam pun rs da bertahun2 lamanye.

3. Save duit.
Kerane duit adelah segala2nya di dunia seperti amalan baik di dunia adalah segala2nya di akhirat. Hehe. Dengan peningkatan gaji seperti yg telah dijanjikan kerajaan Malaysia di harap peningkatan saving juge bertambah. Dan saye menyasarkan untuk menyimpan 20k tahun ini. Mampukah anda? Mampukah saya? Mampu! Sekiranya stop la stalk groupon tu dik oi! Waaa. Im addicted to you! Don't you know, you're a toxic!

4. Minum air masak.
Ape la yg susah sgt nk stop minum air bergula. Ade org penah ckp ade bngla mati dlm mesin coke, ade org spread hiv dekat dlm air coke, still nk minum jugak. Coke adalah pilihan hatiku selamanya. Tomok minum tk kena HIV pong. Kalau kena diabetes sila la lecture diri sendiri.

5. Belajar memasak sehingga mahir.
Kerana ingin menjadi istri mithali yg memasak untuk suami dan anak2. Barulah keluarga bahagia, suami sayang, anak dengar ckp. So kat mane nk amik kelas ye? Google kan ado.

6. Belajar menjahit baju.
Kerane lagi sekali ingin menjadi isteri dan ibu mithali. Cam suke je tgk Melissa Maureen si isteri Malique tu jahit baju untuk anak die Inca Medina. Sgt talented. Tak caye gi stalk instagram die. smpai terasa kalau saya lelaki pun nk cari isteri mcm die. ;p

(smbung balik pukul 2pm td tertido)

7. Kurangkan makanan kfc sebagai makanan ruji.
Tp KFC tu kenyang and cepat sebab ade drive tru. Bile nk gi keje tu gi drive thru and then makan smbil drive. Smpai tinggal sendawa je. So multitasking chewah.. Tp tau dengab kehidupan yg sedentery begini tmbah dengan penggunaan air berkarbonated mengalir dalam badan boleh menyumbang memacam penyakit.
You do the doctor, do the math. Tp my math sucks since i became a doctor.

8. Tidak mencarut.
Walau ape pun berlaku. Walau stress mana. Walau penat mane. Walau annoying mabe relative patient tu. Walau susah mane nk dpt darah patient tu smpai die marah2 maki. Walau aggressive mane and dungunye mamat alcaholic itu, bersabarlah. Nk carutan sgt, try zikr. Feewit.

9. Tak mengumpat.
Wa ini sukar. Tak sengaje. Tk tahan nk simpan. Tk tahan nk dengar. Tolongla Ya Allah tutupkanla telingaku dan kuncikanla mulutku dr segala anasir jahat tp jgn la Engkau pekakkan telingaku dan butakan mataku. Aminn

10. Err. Umm. Exercise?
Waa even tulis pun buat rasa lemah seluruh badan. Tkpe try. at least once a month? Lgpun ni peluang keemasan nk beli kasut sukan baru ngeh ngeh ngeh.

Cukup la tu sepuluh.

Diharap 2012 akan menjadi hebat untuk ku. Ade sesuatu yg ingin aku kecapi. Bukan bukan pasal nk gi konsert avril. Tu memang ingin dikecapi lagi sekali. tp ini lebih besar. Biarlah ia menjadi rahsia ku dan Allah. Ecewah.

Okay mari memulakan hari.
Selamat tahun baru semua.
Selamat berusaha menjadi manusia yg lebih baik dari tahun lpas.

Jia you!!

P/s: my life theme song da bertukar. No longer taio cruz break your heart.;p

Goodbye 2011!

2011-12-31T23:54:00.001+08:00

Hula. Asalamualaikum.

So here we are at the end of the year. The famous 31st december where most of the human beings will reminisce what they have done for the whole 2011. The mistakes, regrets are memories made. Ah tetibe lagu Adele pulak masuk. I myself would like to take time and muhasabah diri remembering the good deeds and sins i've made since January 2011 until today.

I started this year very badly with heart broke into pieces over the news that the person i was in love with, engaged with someone else. It was really bad that it changed me to the worst person i could be.

I felt devastated, betrayed, hopeless, depressed and all the negativity feelings in the world combined together. I stopped believe in love. And life. I forgot the purpose why i was brought into the life. I was angry with myself, everyone and God. I thought of suicidal most of the time. Only busy working life kept me sane.

I dated a lot of guys. I did it because i want to break their hearts. I thought it will satisfy me but it never did. I couldnt find peace. I became more miserable.

Along the way, i met all kind of guys. The good and the worst. None of the relationship means anything to me. To those people who i've hurt, i am deeply sorry. To lelaki paling jahat pernah aku jumpe i wish u will get burnt in hell because you deserve it. You know you deserve it. Hah. Emosi.

But after a while i get bored with playing hearts. So i quit. I spent most of the time with myself. I learnt to be independent. Until at one point, i find it comfortable eating alone, shop alone, watch movie alone. Huyeah. Thats when i rise. And rise. The lamb transformed into lion. (quote dr robin hood)

I started to accept the fact that im not destined to be with him. And when he finally married in July, i myself surprised i did not shed a single tear.

2011 is the year i started using foul language verbally. I cursed so much that it had replace my Zikr and prayers in daily life. It was the darkest time of my life. I became rude impatient arrogant people.

2011 is also the year i become a selfish person. My aim was to seek happiness. I want nothing but my own happiness. I did not bother to care for other people's heart. And i get rid of those people who hurt me. I dont see the point keeping people who always put me down. Somehow, it works. I manage to find back the serenity.

Although it started with bumpy and rocky road, It slowly gets better with time. I manage to find many good friends in hospital. With their help i regained back my power to live. I tried to reach to God again. Slowly.

I had plenty of good times spent with my friends. The trip to Bangkok, Singapore. All the amazing dinner at Tony Romas, Ben's, Chilis, the hotels. Did Bungee jumping! Met few guys who are sincere. Sadly my heart is only for myself.

I learnt a lot at hospital. The career is going well. I get to do so many cool stuff insert line in baby, old ppl, assisst operation, etc. I met variety of people. And when i see sick people, i feel lucky that i am still alive and healthy. It is good that my times are fully used at work so by the time i reach home i am too exhausted to be sad.

Not to forget the awesome raya with big family. And lots and lots of wedding to attend. My first and last time of being bridesmaid also happen in 2011. Plenty of happiness.

Reaching to the end of the year, i became more stable. And contented again with life. I tried to accept the fate as it is. And get rid of all the negativity in life. I train myself to become more patient, train my emotion to become more stable. I become happier.

So now despite all the lubang2 road at early of the year. I learnt a lot. like a lot. I do still have trust issue but i believe it will fades away with time. And hope much bigger fortune awaits for me next year. Huyeah.

Nuff repeks.

The End.

Sleep.

2011-11-17T01:35:00.001+08:00

Sleep is very important. It helps ur body to recharge your energy. Helps your skin to revitalize so it wont wrinkle. It helps all your muscle to relax. Helps your brain to stop thinking for a while. Mengelak hati berbuat dosa. Ape aku merepek ni.

Anyway, sejak berkerja di Emergency Department Hkl yg well known sentiase menerima kunjungan manusia sejagat setiap hari. Mcm ade open house/konsert rock/megasale, hari2 penuh. Ditambah dengan waktu berkerja yang dibahagi kepada 3 shift system, pagi, petang, mlm menyebabkan sleepzone da haywired. So terjadi la peristiwa bangun lewat di pagi hari. Tido pukul 4ptg bgn kul 12 mlm. Tk blh tdo kul 1 pagi tdo kul 4 pg. Bgn 11 pg gi keje kul 3 ptg. Smpai2 kadang konfuse pagi ke mlm. Hari tk pyh ckp la. Ahad n isnin da tk blh beza. A good thing about it no Monday blues sbb hari2 pun da blues. Har har harun.

Mcm hr ni keje pagi. Nasib bgn pagi td setelah sekian lame keje mlm tk bgn pg. Balik penat trus tdo until 9pm. Sekarang da tk blh tdo. Naseb tk keje pgi esk kalau tk naye tk bgn. Esk keje mlm at 10pm until the next morning. Pastu baru tdo. See complicated kan. Kan. Pastu ade hati patient2 dtg hosp x sbr tunggu giliran nk bising2. I pang kang.

So fhm2 je la kalau tetibe npk muke lesu tk bermaye. Tdo siang hari cm bertahajud bersungguh mlm hari. Atau natural eyebag ku bertmbah besar dr hari ke hari.

Atau seperti gmbr dibawah:

Moo moo caught sleeping in a restaurant at noon after night shift.

Tak thn dowh. Rs hangover. Rs terapung2 terawang2.

K better sleep now. Supaya esk blh subuh. Ngeh. Mari carik all pills yg ade side effect 'caution:can cause drowsiness'.

Bye. Nite. Salam. <3

Eleven.

2011-11-11T23:24:00.001+08:00

I used to love number eleven.
I always thought it is my lucky number.
Don't you remember?

All our dates are on eleventh.
We celebrate happy eleventh.
Don't you remember?

When you brought me back to your house,
I was surprised to know your house number is eleven.
I did not take it as a coincidence.
I thought it was a sign.
Guess i was wrong.

Today could be our day.
But plan was all that we did.
If God do not permit, never will it happen.

Apart from everything that happened,
I want you to know that i am happy for you
As much as i am happy for myself now.

Tq for everything.

Happy Eleventh.

P/s: i love adele's song esp this one. I love original. But the cover ppl made in youtube is not that bad either. :)

Melayang.

2011-11-10T01:17:00.001+08:00

Inginkan perhatian seperti artis? Sila lah bawa layang2 pegi mane2 taman tasik yg jarang org main layang2 kerna takde angin kuat dan garang. Sungguh popular sekali menjadi tumpuan anak2 kecil, ibu bape, rakan sebaye, mat rempit.

"ma, layang2. Ayah! Nk layang2!"
"adik, tgk tu layang2"
"pst.pst. Layang2.. "
"nk men layang2 kt mane tu adik manis"

Sungguh popular sekali. Kalah artis.

Tp mlg sekali luck bon kerna setiap kali gi men layang2 dgn die mesti angin sepoi2 bahasa seperti nk berjiwa romantik je. So terpaksalah fatin teman baikku di hospital berusaha lebih hangat drpd biasa utk buat layang2 ku terbang tinggi di awan. Tetepi ternyata kite hanye merancang tuhan yg menentukan. so jadilah permainan layang2 bertukar menjadi permainan pegang belon berjalan2 sbb layang2 terbang cume 3 meter drpd paras bumi.

Still we had fun. Jalan2 di tasik menikmati pemandangan. Ade pelangi okay buatku ingin buat konsert nidji kat situ nyanyi lagu laskar pelangi. Atau nyanyi lagu somewhere over the rainbow sky so blue..

Ok. Lets see the beautiful faces. Pakailah olay yg ade spf utk melindungi muke gelap terkena sinaran matahari hangat.

Bye~~

Change.

2011-11-08T19:05:00.001+08:00

The time is finally here. To change. For better. Eceh.

As many of you may know (or nt know) i am a loyal user of Olay. Gune pencuci olay. Gune cream olay. I started using the cream Olay White Radiance since i'm 20 years old (rase2nye la teke je huk huk). Waktu tu kan muke celoreng moreng gelap wktu tgh kuat exercise eceh konon. So pakai olay kunun nk putih macam snow white la. N so far memang takde masalah with olay. Kulit semakin cerah. Tkde jerawat. Tk tau la memang kulit jenis yg sukar didiami jerawat atau olay memang ade essence anti jerawat. Suke pakai sebab tekstur die yg tk berminyak n bau die yg harum. N takyah pakai bedak lepas tu pun tape.

Smpai satu saat tu tetibe garnier muncul. Tergugat jugak dgn artis2 yg jadi jurucakap garnier. Tetapi somehow i dont like la the tekstur facial wash die n the cream. Die tak foamy2. So semakin susah mati la menjadi peminat olay.

Berbalik kepada tajuk perbincangan, sejak menggunakan olay bertahun lalu, i hv made a pact with myself untuk bertukar kepada olay total effect yg mempunyai keistimewaan 7 anti penuaan, pabila diriku mencecah ke usia 25 tahun heceh. Kenape ntah ade target cmtu. Even npk Hannah rumet uni dulu da pakai total effect pade umur 22 pun tk tergugat nk tukar. Hehe.

So kerane tahun ni da umur 25 tahun pade ogos lepas. Make bertukarla muke mendapat perlindungan cream dr Olay Total Effect. Semoga muke berasa bahagia dgn perlindungan dr kak long baru.

Tetapi kenape bertukar sekarang di bulan november bukan di bulan ogos? Ini adalah kerana:
1. I like november. (nk kawen bulan november)
2. Sbb baru bulan ni cream olay radiance da abes.
3. Sbb guardian tetibe ade buat promotion discount untuk Olay Total White
4. Sbb baru teringat da umur 25 n kena tukar cream.

Dan yg best about Olay is die tahan lame. Dulu waktu uni selalu bandingkan relationship dgn Olay cream. Relationship A bertahan selama 1 bottle cream Olay. Relationship B bertahan selame 2 bottle cream Olay. Maksudnye saye sayangkan B lebih dari A sbb tu lebih lame.

Olay total effect ni baru pakai sehari so tkleh nk comment lebih2. So far so good. Cm light2 je cream die. Hannah pun dulu kate best, good review.

Sebelum mengundur diri, terima kasih la baca post yg agak merepek ni ye. Biasela bile govt da kurangkan mase berkerja dokter, bykla mase trbuang dengan merepek. Bace la ye 7 anti penuaan yg dikatekan ade kt total effect Olay tu. Nak tgk keberkesanannye tunggula lg 50 tahun akan dtg, kalau hidup lagi insyaAllah i post my latest photo so u can judge yourself.

K bye!

P/s: tk dpt claim pun dr olay buat artikel cenggini.

P/s/s: nanti umur 40 nak tukar skII pulak.

Penimbunan Lemak.

2011-10-24T21:42:00.001+08:00

1. Tony romas. Craving for ribs.
2. Seafood place tepi jalan. Anwar yg bw. Nasib sedap.
3. Cozy House at Great Eastern Mall. Thai food die superb.

Buat hati rase guilty dan kecewa dgn diri sendiri sbb semakin ketat seluar jeans.

Waa.

Luckily ade mekanisme otomatik akan ngantuk bile kenyang terlampau. So that tk larat nk meneruskan pemakanan.

Alhamdulillah di atas rezeki Mu ya Tuhan.

Tq pada yang membayar. Murah rezeki kau. Jyeah.

Sepetang berlayang2.

2011-10-24T13:14:00.001+08:00

I had quite a bad day the day before. Blur with the new rotation in emergency department. Had some arguments with friends. So i decided to go play kite dekat kepong. Wee.

Lucky ade Bon Bon to teman.

This is the third time i come here. Unfortunately this time angin cume sepoi2 bahasa. So terpaksalah memakse bon berlari dgn lebih hebat smpai berpeluh untuk menerbangkan layang2. Muahaha. Tp cuaca tetap tidak mengizinkan. So jadilah dlm history permainan layang2 tersingkat dalam hidup. We hang around 20 minutes before i decide Bon da cukup exercise for the day. Haha.

Next we headed to cineleisure tman Bon tgk Reel Steel. Give and take la kan. Die teman main layang2, i teman tgk muvie. Walaupun da tgk. Ngeh.

Somehow everytime naik kereta dgn Bon mesti jln jem. Nk gi kepong jln jem, nk pegi curve jln jem, nk balik jalan jem. Aura jem kuat gile. Hoho. Terpaksa la jadi kanak2 ribena dlm kereta. Terima kasih Bon kasi i buat kete u cm kete sendiri.

Mood menjadi okay by the end of the day.

Muchas gracias amigo!

Spa!!!

2011-10-22T09:32:00.001+08:00

Finally the last day of holiday, well spent with visit to beauty salon to pamper my body with the girls.

I found the promotion of Roseanne beauty salon at the groupon.my website. They are selling a voucher of rm240 at the price of rm55. Watlu okay! The package comprises of 1 hour scrub and jacuzi + 1 hr full body massage.

I bought it few days before i finished my surgical rotation. I bought 4 vouchers so that i can go with the ladies, wani lala and atil. It is totally the most right decision i ever made i life. Heceh. Total worth it.

At first i booked it for 4 person at the afternoon. However one of the salon worker took el, so they can only do two person at once. Bummer. But still i had a wondeeful experience there with Lala.

With the help of my google maps, i manage to find the place at damansara. Reach there with flying colours.

It started with full body scrub for around 40 minutes. It was good. Removing all the dirts on your body. Then 20 minutes of soaking myself in a big jacuzzi. Took a shower in amazing shower box. Proceed with abdominal candling and massage to remove the wind. Ended with another hour of full body massage. I was trying hard to sustain the pain. Waahaha. The masseus asked me several times to relax my body. It reminds me of situation i had at the hosp, ask patient to relax while im doing digital rectal examination on them. Huhu.

Lala and i had great conversation along the process. Lots of catching up to do. We talked about her lovelife, the wedding and her concerns on certain issues. Don't think much about it la, girl. We also talk about my love life and when shud i settle down. Well, nobody masuk meminang yet, wattodo.

At the end of the session they served us with a tea. I dnt knw what tea is that but tastes quite good. The best part they even have a hairdryer so i dnt go hme with a wet hair.

Then after the spa session while waiting atel n wani to finish, i had another BR moments for the third time this week. I chose low fat ice crean. Yummeh. Peanut butter n choc + rasbery cheese.

Later we are joined by wani and atel. After the dessert, we watched What's Her Number.
Third time for me.

All i can say is it's a wonderful experience at the spa and the day is well spent with the loveable darlings.

:)

Eat. Eat. Eat.

2011-10-20T23:24:00.001+08:00

Last day of Iffah in kuala lumpur.

Bw die mkn kt ikea. Meatballs. Meatballs. We picked lots of food that i need to finish it in 2 rounds. Solat zuhur in between. Pastu jalan2 shopping tingkap di ikea. Santek brg2 tp amatla tidak berkemampuan untuk menukang. Dr situ juga impian utk berkahwin dgn carpenter timbul.

Then, watched what's her number for second time. Had BR moment since it was the Pink Day.

For dinner, i had a korean cuisine at this place called B Station near Ampang. A vey cosy place. It is owned by a korean family. Beautiful place for a date. They have sweet words written on the walls. White furnitures. Cute tiny bears on the shelves. Polaroid trees. They even provide comics to read while waiting for the food. But sadly to say, the foods are so so.

And i have a new iphone cover!! Yeeha. Thank you to you!

Genting on Tuesday.

2011-10-20T22:26:00.001+08:00

Day 4 of holiday.
The plan of the day is take Iffah and Irma to Genting. Shian ta penah pegi. Ngeh ngeh.

The day started with me mengharungi morning traffic di jalan ampang to pick up Irma's lil bro. Ponteng skola ye. Felt so shitty and stress level was 7/10. Menghabiskan masa menggeliat and yawning and singing.

Pick up adik Irma. Say hi hi bye bye to atok irma yg comel n siap bekalkan sebotol kerepek ubi yg shedap gile. Park dkt nearest putra station. And off to genting.

Too bad skyway was under maintenance for the whole week. Tk dpt ipah nk merase. Ngeh. Ngeh.

But we did have fun up there. It was cold and nt too crowded. We took the shots at space shot, screwed by cockscrew, ride the boat at the boaring dinasour land, eat hot rolls, took few photos.

Irma was damn lucky. She won a big teddy at first try dekat games booth. Cool.

Somehow i did nt play much up there. Guess im getting old n dunno hw to have fun anymore or maybe genting is just getting boring these day. It doesnt change much since my previous visits.

The day is ended by dinner at murni with roy and his mazda. And me passed out in his car for the whole journey back home.

Hihi. One hell of tiring but fun day. :)

Monday Blues. Not.

2011-10-18T10:36:00.001+08:00

Day 3 holiday. Jyeah.

Suke hati takyah keje. No monday blues.

Spent time with my ex unimates.

1. small bday celebration for ipah at baskin robbin.

2. Early dinner at siam

3. Karaokeing with bday girl, Alialala.

Tiring but worth it ;D

Beach Getaway.

2011-10-17T16:31:00.001+08:00

Again. I know. But i just love beach. (nt bitch)

I went there with 2 beautiful doctor-mate. One of those spontaneous vacation that was planned a nite before.

At first we stop at Bagan Lalang. Sadly the hotel there was fully booked for the day. So we straightly headed to nearby beachtown, Port Dickson. Wee~

It was an awesome short trip. Singing to adele during on the road. Sandwrestling like fatin called it. Lounging at the pool, simmering in the sea at nite, moonbathing except there was no moon or stars but dark sky, and soaking in the bathtub while listening to good music.

And lots and lots of photos.

Enjoy~

I'm back!

2011-10-12T23:36:00.001+08:00

Wee. I have not blog for quite some time. Missing it but im busy living my dramatic life. Muahaha

I bought new phone! Deeply falling in love with it.

Worked for a year.Get through surgical posting with sweat tears n blood n laughter!

Lost friends. Get to know new friends.

Went to around ten or more? Weddings.

Make mistakes. Lots of mistakes. Regrets. Lessons. Sighs.

Thats all for the comeback ramblings.

Nite bloggies!

Ramadhan :)

2011-08-08T16:38:00.004+08:00

1. Mintak maaf untuk semua salah silap hamba. Daku hanya insan biasa. Melakukan dosa lebih dari lime kali sehari. So, i am sorry. From the deepest of my heart.

2. This is my second Ramadhan working as a doctor. Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan. Amin.

3. Ramadhan kali ni so far is the most tenang Ramadhan i ever had. Im blessed.

Akhir kata, Selamat Beramal!

Mungkin ini Ramadhan yang terakhir.

Assalamualaikum. :)

Needle prick?

2011-06-30T08:07:00.001+08:00

Do you knw that there is hiv patient in the hospital?

Do you knw that hiv is transmitted through blood?

Do you knw that one of doctor's daily job is taking blood?

Do you knw that taking blood is using needle?

Do you knw that the needle used to take the blood cn accidentally prick the person who take the blood?

Hence, ad hiv x semestinye ad seks rambng.

Anyway, i just resuscite a hiv person the other nite.

And no, i dnt get needle prick.

I get papercut. Shyte. Hurts like heartbreak.

P/s: But if one day i ever get hiv, percayala sy x melakukan seks rambang mahupun berkongsi jarum mengambil dadah. I cn get plenty of needle. No need share one.

Day 5 tagging.

2011-06-26T08:59:00.000+08:00

At 10.10 pm, hkl.

Cramped elevator.

Chocolate sundae in hand.

Favourite tk pyh gosok bju mengandung.

Progressively growing eyebag.

3 more days to go.

*finger crossed*

Sorry?

2011-06-25T10:38:00.001+08:00

They said whenever people hurts you, write it on the sand and let it go with the wind that will erase it or the wave that will wash it away.

But im nt living in the dessert or by the beach.

Im living on concrete floors where the words will remain there permanently once i wrote it.

Bosan da dgr perkataan sorry.

Isnt he just sweet?

2011-06-23T15:40:00.001+08:00

I was moody and rambling on and on when out of sudden he put this thing on the table.

A small lil flower made out of tissue paper is enough to make me smile.

Thank you.

Haish.

2011-06-22T06:35:00.001+08:00

Fell asleep while driving this morning and hit the car in front.

FML

Getaway.

2011-06-18T12:15:00.001+08:00

There is no other place i rather be.

Slurp.

2011-06-15T06:52:00.001+08:00

You cant buy hapiness.
But you can buy an ice cream.
And that is kinda the same thing.

:-)

Positive.

2011-06-09T09:27:00.001+08:00

Hi. I'm emoing.

2011-06-08T07:02:00.001+08:00

I was happy.
Bt nw i cant even smile.
Tqvm.
~

p/s : i always blog when im sad. I guess thats wat emo ppl do. Pfft.

Perfect.

2011-01-29T12:48:00.006+08:00

The lyric.
The song.
Just perfect.

Talks.

2011-01-27T18:58:00.006+08:00

Pang I.

Me: My ex just got engaged.
Pang: wtf. So fast. That girl must be pregnant.

Pang II.

Me: Do you know if there is any contraindication for pregnant mother to take cough mixture?
Pang: Nope. Why? Are you pregnant?
Me: Haha. Yup. Surprise!! And in case you are wondering, I dont know who the father is.

Malcolm.

Me: You better give me that oncall or else..
Malcolm: Or else what?
Me: Or else i will go find your car and scratch big letters there "fuck you". im serious.
Malcolm: Then i will just ask you where and when. im serious too. LOL.
Me: Not funny!

E I.

Me: Cantik kan that doctor.
E: Yup. Cantik. Bergaya. Tinggi. Smart.
Me: Yup.
E: Totally not like us. Dahla tak cantik. Tak pandai. Suke mencarut.
Me: Haha. But i love being us.

E II.

Me: Geram gile cannot set in the branula. Don't know why.
E: Because you are not pretty.
Me: wtf.

M.

Me: Why you only taught how to do that to Amelia. You never teach me!
M: Because she is pretty and you are not.
Me: Grr.

Ivan.

M: Ivan, Hajar likes jambu person. Why dont you be her boyfriend.
Ivan: No thanks. I want to eat pig. I love pig. Cannot convert.
Me: Bodo betul due2.

Ken.

M: That guy is so stupid. So irritating. Babi.
Ken: Slurrpp. I love pig.

Ken II.

Me: You dari mana?
Ken: Baru balik makan babi.

Ken III.

Me: Are you coming to the party?
Ken: Got babi or not?
Me: -_-

No matter how stupid everyone can be sometimes,
I will definitely miss each of them muchos.
T T

Changes.

2011-01-04T20:28:00.009+08:00

I hate changes.

I hate when the used to be empty road now crowded with cars, motorcycles, school buses, pedestrians. I hate traffic jam.

I hate when the used to be friend now thinking he/she cannot be friend with me anymore because of some reason. It's mean.

I hate when the used to be office room is now empty cuz they translocate the office to a bigger room downstairs. I have no idea where it is now.

I hate when the used to be boss decided to move to another hospital that now I have to adapt to a new boss. But the new boss is nice too. ;p

I hate when the used to be second boss left for singapore that now I can only gossip with her through phone and have to use my own imagination how her face looks like when she hears the news. Ok. this is irrelevant.

I hate when the used to be fitted jeans feel so loose on me now. Luckily i love shopping for new clothes.

I hate when the used to be scratch free new car is now full of scratches and dirty cuz i'm too lazy to wash it. But honestly, i somehow don't give a damn about the scratches. Instead i feel more connected with the car as it is kind of an artwork to show how exactly my heart is, full of scars.

I hate when the used to be cute baby now is a fat obese child. It is not cute anymow.

I hate when the used to be low fare flight ticket now become so expensive because the closing date for the promotion has ended. I do not manage to buy it earlier because i am busy working!

I hate when Fazli the clerk change my viva date from eleven to twelfth january. I love eleven! I always feel it is my lucky number!

I hate when I have to change the photo for my phone's screensaver just because the person in it is no longer feel the same way about me as he used to.

Call me autistic,

but i just simply have difficulties to tolerate changes.

I am unique.

For not being as superb as u in adapting with changes.

Daa~

Postcall.

2011-01-03T19:08:00.004+08:00

This is my postcall-prepooping look.

3 hours of sleep and i still manage to look cute, huh!

(I know~)

tada keje. i just miss blogging and camwhoring.

Recap.

2011-01-01T09:43:00.012+08:00

In 2010,

There are things I don't want to happen but have to accept,

Things I don't want to know but have to learn,

People I don't want to live without but have to let go.

But still,

there are many events that happen,

that really really rocking my world!

1. Graduate!

2. Become a doctor!

3. Travelling!

to east malaysia.

to penang.

to melaka.

to bangkok.

to singapore. (again)

4. Wonderful Raya!

5. Great Friends!

they who taught me the fun of travelling.

they who makes me a good leader.

he (M) who proves me being bitchy is actually kinda fun.

she (fatin the fashionista) who makes my tagging time less closer to hell.

as her name, E is my everything!

(still, im not going to be ur bridesmaid. tq)

6. New Companion!

sadly, she/he doesnt look like this anymore. lol.

7. Starbucks!

i am proud of myself for my courage to get this book.

Ends!

*regardless of all, 2010 is still one hell depressive year for me. may 2011 be kind to me*

Sharp Bin

2010-10-24T23:47:00.007+08:00

SN: Dr, kawan saya ada nak berkenalan.

Me: Ha?

SN: Die suruh saye mintak no phone Dr.

(mesti lelaki kiut yg asek hi hi every morning tu)

Me: Oh ye. Saya anti lelaki.

SN: Oh, Dr lesbian ye?

Me: A.ah. camne tau? jgn bagitau kat org laen.

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Anyway, this is my sharp bin. Where i throw all the needles after poking ppl's vein. Every house officer has their own sharp bin. Once i got fined by Sister of the ward because someone using my sharp bin and did not place it back to its usual place. Grr. Rm5 you know which of course la i haven't pay it yet. :p

Current obsession: taking blood.

It makes me feel more cooler than edward cullen or any IVDU in the whole wide world.

Daa~

Somewhere Only We Know

2010-10-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

Morning people!

Its Sunday.

Lets merepek.

This song is dedicated to you,

(sesape nk perasan pun buleh)

Its getting crappy towards the end that i dont finish it properly.

Hooray~

Since i have 2 days off for the weekend, i m doing jumbo updates:

My convocation.

Work! Work! Work!

Enjoy!

Work! Work! Work!

2010-10-10T07:38:00.006+08:00

Hah!

(boleh tk nk mulakan dengan hah! bukan hello!)

I am in the fourth month now working as a doctor. Although it could get stresful sometimes that i feel like stabbing patient to death or starting act as a rapper using so much of foul language, i still love the job. Hammuah.

Currently, im in Obstetric and Gynaecology posting.

:: ni waktu clinic blackout. playtime! ::

Ward:

::pink kan the curtain. comel kan. baju patient pun pink kan::

Basically, the work start with reviewing patients in ward as early as 6:40 am to 7 pm. At 7.30 there is a morning briefing where everyone will go from the junior doctor to the consultant. The staff nurses to the matrons. The people on call on the night before will presenting any interesting event happen on the night before. After the morning briefing, there will be rounds in the ward conducted by the senior doctor or specialist or consultant. That is the time when some of the junior doctor will get screwed. Muahaha. After the round, the ward work will be carried on. Take the patient's blood, do vaginal examination, scan the tummy, serve medication, do discharge summary, baby asessment yada yada the work never fail to reduce. Other than ward, there are other 2 interesting place to work.

Labour room:

::this is adam zakhry. the last baby i help get into this world. mmuack::

The labour room where we are required to conduct the delivery. Do countless vaginal examination to assess whether the mother is ready for the delivery. Assessing the fetal wellbeing. Teaching mommy how to push out the baby, pull out the baby, cut the umbilical cord, show the mummy this is your baby, expel out the placenta and then stitching back the wound. The feeling of conducting delivery is wonderful. One of the reason i love this job!.

Operation theater:

baju operation theatre. kalau nk masuk ot, kena pakai cm dlm greys. baju di dalam ga buleh pakai ya donk

Kena assisting the surgeon do operation. The caesarean section, removing the cyst, etc. I dont like it. The theatre was damn cold. It was tiring to push the baby out, retracting. I dont like. The only best thing is you can see how the womb looks like, the cyst looks like, the muscle, the ovaries and all the structures inside it.

The blue team:

I get to be the leader in my team. At first i was so angry why the last leader appointed me to replacing her because there were so many people who are more senior than me. But after a while i kind of like the job. I get to choose the day i am oncall, selecting people who will go to clinic, or ward or operation theatre, i am the one who will sign the holiday form for my team, i can bully the people in my team. It was a pleasant feeling. My team always think that one day i will be one of the garang MO there in hkl yg ramai org tk suke. Haha. Aiman tak kesah pun.

::see my name on the top. it shows how senior i am in the team. ha muhahaha::

Practically, every four months i need to change from one department to another. And before the change happen, there is a viva test. Huhu. I thought the exam days has been over once i graduate. But hell no. Other than that, i also have a log book that need to be filled just like during medical school days.

Anyway, I have finished my viva with 2 specialists with satisfactory. Getting my log book signed. Had my last oncall last thursday. Next week, i am going to submit them to the office, go on a long holiday and get ready back to work to another department.

The friends:

this is pang and elly. my 2 closest friends i know since day 1 of life in hkl. both of them are married. wuwuwuw.

this was taken on the last dinner with pang before he change to another department.

Idan, the next leader for my team.

Last outing with Elly before she change department.

my heart and soul, cikin canduri. haha

muacks.

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Prof B: Have u ever regretted doing medical when you were in medical school?

Me: Yup. Several times.

Prof B: Good. If u said no, I would like to refer you to the radiology department to do MRI.

Me: ....

Prof B: If you have given a choice to change your career, what would you want to be?

Me: Still a doctor.

Prof B: You can come here on Wednesday, i will give you the MRI form.

Me: Haaha. I only regretted it when i was doing medical school. But i kinda like working as a doctor. At least for now la.

Prof B: You are crazy.

see my handwriting? this is the reason i know i am destined to be a doctor. muahaha

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Toodles~

Convocation.

2010-10-10T06:50:00.002+08:00

Meh lihat photos!

Day 1: Pre Konvo at HUKM

Day 1 and a half: Photoshoot at Putrajaya

Day 2: The Convocation at UKM Bangi

The Black and White!

Wee~

AidilFitri.

2010-09-10T10:48:00.001+08:00

Selamat hari raya everyone!

Minta ampun dan maaf untk segala salah dan silap.

Peace ya'll!

Love,
SH

:-P

2010-09-05T12:18:00.001+08:00

Its sunday.

Gloomy morning.

Im eating ice cream.

Cold outside. Cold inside.

.

24

2010-08-27T19:48:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday sitihajar.v !

I m now a year closer to death.

Weehoo~

:-)

Muhaimin.

2010-08-21T15:56:00.001+08:00

Ini muhaimin. Die partner oncall sy pada hari ni. Slalu sy oncall sorang2. Die sedang tidur. Sy sedang bermain phone.oh no, ada new patient baru sampai.gtg.

...

2010-07-28T22:35:00.001+08:00

Bon Odori.

2010-07-18T07:48:00.001+08:00

Kawaii ne?

Haha.

2010-07-07T22:24:00.007+08:00

.

..

I miss writing too. But maybe later. Til then, do pray for my well being. Physically, emotionally and spritually. xoxo

p/s: work is cool. i'm lovin' it.

Pie.

2010-05-20T22:07:00.004+08:00

Apple pie Ipah style.

p/s: oh pls ignore the ridiculous buttercream on top.

BerEmosi

2010-05-15T22:02:00.008+08:00

Akhir2 ini saya sungguh emosi.

gambar hiasan yang tidak emosi ketika berumur 23 tahun

Beremosi membuat cupcake.

Beremosi melihat perlawanan badminton.

Beremosi dengan ketiadaan Bunny.

Beremosi menonton Adamaya.

Beremosi mendengar mp3.

Beremosi ketika memotong bawang.

Segalanya beremosi.

Pasti hormon.

Stay.

2010-05-10T10:33:00.002+08:00

Don't judge.

hahahihihuhu

I love this place

But it's haunted without you

My tired heart is beating so slow

Our hearts sing less

Than we wanted we wanted

Our hearts sing 'cause

We do not know we do not know

Chorus:

To light the night

To help us grow

It is not said

I always know

You can catch me

Don't you run

If you live another day

In this happy little house

The fire's here to stay

Chorus:

To light the night

To help us grow

It is not said

I always know

Please don't make a fuss

It won't go away

The wonder of it all

The wonder that I made

I am here to stay

To stay.

(Little House - Amanda Seyfried)

April.

2010-05-03T15:44:00.001+08:00

Hola peeps!

I know its been quite a long time since the last post.

So here are the summaries what happen to me for the whole last month.

1. First April was the day i woke up with a thought in my head :

"Oh, now im a doctor! Wee. Da habes belajar. Jom tido balik. Wee. Zzz. "

2. Celebrate the success with the family, fellow coursemate, good friends etc. Makan. Makan. Makan. Naseb tak gemuk sangat. Thanks Nad for the sweet cupcakes!

3. Had a breakfast with my ever gud buddy Umar. It felt good to meet him after 3 years. Maybe we can arrange the next breakfast together in 2015. He gave me this t-shirt with letters printed on it saying "Trust Me. I'm A Doctor'. Poyo giler siot.

4. Hanging out with my great supergirlfriends, Safiyya, Syu, Nad, Farah and Aida. Watching movies. Stalking people. Dinner. Borak2. Tp part yg tk best, Nad da balik India. The other 3 are working so we can only go out on weekends. Bummer.

5. Pergi ICT dekat Shah Alam tengok pokok warna-warni. Not much fun. Sebab panas. It was beautiful tetapi kenape nak bazir elektrik bile org sebok berkempen jimat elektrik untuk melawan global warming yang memang memanaskan ini.

6. Picnic at Sungai Tekala. Mandi bum bam bum bam. And then heading to Ostrich farm where i play with the baby ostrich and bagi die mkn sambil jerit2 ketakutan. Get a chance to ride an ostrich. And mempercayai diri tidak la gemuk dan berat sebab boleh berdiri atas telur ostrich tanpe memecahkannya. Sangat seronok walaupun ostrich2 itu memang menakutkan diriku.

7. Had my first journey to Kelantan by a train with 5 girlfriends. It was hilarious. Sebab semua org pun jakun naik keretapi. Amik gmbr sane gmbr sini. Bising2 kacau penumpang laen nak tido. It was a 12 hour journey. so, there's absolutely no way anyone can stop girls from chatting and gossiping for hours.

8. Kat kelantan, stay dekat rumah ex coursemate, marlina. the hospitality was great. Kakak ipar Marlina sangat bagus bawak jalan2 satu Kelantan. We went to Pasar Siti Khadijah, the waterfall, the mosque, the beach, the temples. Ade patung sami buddha besar yang baring tu, yg berdiri. Makan byk makanan kelantan. Kuih kelantan. Tahi Itik, Jala emas. etc. Shopping tudung. Mace2 la.

9. Pastu terus pergi rumah Iyas dekat Penang. Tapi paling tk boleh blah mase on the first day, da siap2 pakai baju cantek makeup pelbagai.

Iyas: Yang korang pakai cantek2 ni kenape? Aku nak bwk korang pegi hiking.

Me: Hiking? Seriously???

Iyas: Ye. Pergi tukar baju.

Me: Nak tukar baju ape. Tk bw seluar yg sesuai. Ade jeans ketat je. Tk boleh hiking.

So some of ended up borrowing the proper attire from Iyas. And walaupun sangat mencabar fizikalku dan keinginan yang memuncak untuk tidak pergi masuk tempat yg byk tanah and pkok, lalu jambatan gantung, all of us made it to Monkey Island. The view was spectacular. Not many people around as if the beach was ours. Maen Jet ski and i get a chance to drive a boat. And kitorang kutip hidupan kecil kat tepi pantai yang bentuk mcm kerang tp dorang panggil siput tk phm aku and bwk balik rumah Iyas masak.

Another great thing in Penang was Iyas' mom's cooking. Mee Udang and the Nasi Lemak are super delicious. Memang semua org tmbh due kali. And i terburp dengan kuat kat meja makan dan sangat memalukan sehingga Acap terover blushing.

And tk lupe Irfan! Iyas' nephew yang tersangat comel. Talkative. Dengan loghat Penang die. Haish. I want a son exactly like him! The funniest part mase die insist wanting only me to put on his diaper wic i have no idea how to do it. Luckily, Iyas tackle the situation perfectly. Rindu that small creature.

Penang trip was absolutely fun! Thanks Iyas bw tour around penang, naik ferry and let us making your house like ours.

10. Pergi Langkawi with my mom and other relatives. This is my second time. I enjoyed it as i did on the first time. But yg laen kali ni i naek cable car yang jauh dan tinggi gile dan menakutkan ditambah ade due orang pakcik yg merepek asek nak hentak2 cable car untuk menakutkan isteri mereka. I did enjoyed the scenery when i was up there but there is no way im going to ride it ever ever again.

And I learnt a new thing on this trip. Correll. Pinggan tu kace tapi die ringan and made in America. Itu je la kerja makcik2 and my mom pergi visit kedai pinggan mangkuk. Kedai Haji Ismail Group tu entah berape kali da masuk. And mak borong set pinggan mangkuk kat Idaman Suri.

Okay. check my FB for the photos!

or here or here or here

daa~

Perasaan.

2010-04-07T19:04:00.004+08:00

saya ada perasaan menulis.

tapi di atas sebab2 berikut sy tk menulis:

1. sbb lappie rosak. sy tk suke sgt tules blog dr tmpat laen. sy memang mengade orgnye.

2. sbb sy sedang di dalam mode cuti dan berhibernasi. oleh itu tidak terlawan kemalasan mengupload gmbar dan menulis di sini.

3. perasaan yg bercampur baur dan emosi tidak stabil kekadang. org kate one of the rules of writing a blog, dont write your emotions out. mane la ade org yg suke nk dgr crite2 sdih emo2 kan. kalau die suke, baik die tgk citer hindustan. tk gitu?

tu je la cukup.

jap lagi sy nk keluar bersama rakan2 yang menceriakan hidupku akhir2 ni.

and yeah, sy dah ade DR in front of my name. alhamdulillah shukur nikmat. Malaysia maju rakyat selamat. terime kaseh diatas doa kalian, wee~

salam~

Khazanah.

2010-04-03T15:00:00.001+08:00

Found ths in hannah's room. Tk sangka ini dulu bilik Dr Tahirah, Medical Officer Paeds yg cantik tu. Huhu.

Ke ad senior ukm laen yg name tahirah jugak.

Huhu.

Packing.

2010-04-02T21:41:00.001+08:00

I am migrating.

Will update more soon.

Stay tune~ :p

Queen.

2010-03-27T03:06:00.004+08:00

this is not my room.

im spending my night doing this thing (i menjahit ok sequins kat huruf2 tu) with my beloved fellow friends for tomorrow graduation dinner while watching 3 movies in a row. (something on tv, Up, What Happen In Vegas)

Tomorrow night might be the last day my batch will gather together and have fun together and be stupid together.

Tapi menakutkan sbb everything was done last minute as we just finished our final exam this week. Hope everything went well. All the committe members are working hard to make it happen. To those who hasnt decided whether to come or not, please do come!

For the exam, I hope there'll be zero failure this time. I really want to pass the exam. And i want everybody to pass it too. Dear God, please please please grant my wish. May all of us pass the exam and get to be a doctor starting 31st March 2010. Amin~

I think i need to get to bed. its already 3.20 am.

I am sorry if i hurt anybody's feeling today. Forgive and forget. Spread the love, yo!.

Tawakal.

2010-03-23T01:05:00.007+08:00

Kehilangan seseorang adalah amat menyakitkan.

Itula kesimpulan yg dpt dibuat setelah menonton filem The Lovely Bones.

And yes, i have finished my final exam.

:)

SPM.

2010-03-12T01:27:00.005+08:00

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tahniah kepada yg berjaya. yg tidak berjaya jgn risau. esok masih ada. hidup masih panjang.

*click photo for a larger view*

Aishii Subject = my sister

Nuryun Afif = my cousin, faten's sister
Maria = my cousin, Mia's mummy
Zas Dee = my aunt

To Faten Haryati, congratulations! Make sure you get that expensive underwear from your beloved sister. :p

Distress.

2010-03-11T18:20:00.011+08:00

.
Hari ni saya serabut.

Gile mcm melalui vicious cycle of compartment cycle yg tiada kesudahan.

stress wo.

bak kata lala ckp, bak kata Prof Shahrir:

" Have you ever expected that the stress will be this high when the first time you read the offer letter to enroll in medical school?"

and sumer org pun jwb, "NO!"

i tk ckp pape.

sbb i tk pegi pun kelas prof untuk jawab soalan itu. sile salahkan katil sye yg sgt comfortable.

sekian terima kasih. mintak maaf ye prof. doakan sy ye. xoxo.

anyway, untuk meredakan kegilaan meroyan kepala hotakku yg sepertinye sudah overload dgn ilmu pengetahuan yg sememangnye tidak akan habes untuk dipelajari.

sy pun pergi melakukan sesuatu pada hari ini:

Cara menghilangkan stress versi Sang Comel.

1. avoid the stressor --> ponteng study grup.

2. buat sesuatu yg bermanfaat supaya tidak rasa bersalah. pergi menunaikan sesuatu hal. rahsia.

3. pergi mkn condel. eh silap tulis. cendol kan ejaannye.

::sile jgn judge kesedapan cendol based on pembuatnye. cendol itu sgt sedap hokeyh::

4. pergi mkn baskin roben. ammuah.

satu pelaburan yg bagus pabile kte belanje org makan cendol, org tu belanje kte mkn besken. muahahaha

5. pergi surau mendekatkan diri dengan tuhan. moge diberi ketenangan hati. insyaALLAH.

huhu~

semoga sy lebih bersemangat untuk belajar di mlm ini. aminn.

p/s: tk rindu pun. tk. tk. tk.

p/s/s: exam sy lagi 3 hari. sile pergiatkan usaha mendoakan sy. tq.

Sushi.

2010-03-05T01:31:00.008+08:00

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One fine and stressful day, me and study grup mets decided to grab some sushi and eat japanese cuisine for dinner.

So we headed to SUSHI KING!!

*umar, sile jeles sekarang. cepat. slurp.*

this is Lala yg teruja dengan cold ocha-nye

this is me tekun gile hafal menu2 meal sushi king.

n me again terencat dpt mkn unagi slurp slurp

atel yg mempunyai keinginan selera yg same

and wani pilih untuk makan oh-sy-terlupe-name-menunye.

sedap and kenyang siots.

walaupun terasa miskin selepas itu.

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dan ia mengingatkan sy kepada memori2 jepun.

ini adalah kedai dimana sy membazirkan duit bernilai rm100 untuk breakfast di kedai sushi yg famous di Fish Market akan kerana sy sngt malas nk convert duit yen ke malaysia dan tak perasan kemahalan itu. Huwahaha.

Tapi best. The restaurant serve sushi in buffet and ade chef yg akan sediakan sushi tu fresh2 depan2 and he will continue serve you sushi until you raise your hand and say stop. So makan la till you explode. Tapi daku pada zaman dulu mempunyai perut yang kecil, tidakla makan begitu banyak.

So before makan tu da ckp, i dont want pork, meat, alcohol. tp terlupe giler suruh die jgn letak wasabi. So memang terasa mcm perempuan hot gile la waktu tu sgt2 smpai berair2 mata and hidung and rase nk nanges sbb atok chef tu letak wasabi byk gile and wasabi die mcm luarbiasa pedasnye. Pastu kuis2 wasabi keluar dari sushi. Abes kena gelak dengan org jepun sekeliling. After that baru atok chef da tk letak wasabi on my sushi.

thanks atok chef sebab baik sgt dekat sye yang sememangnye tk mkn pedas n tk join org laen gelakkan sy.

pabila keboringan menunggu makanan

lala persuaded me to try nato

p/s: la, tgk manda kusyuk bercerita kat belakang.

xoxo

Sunday.

2010-02-28T09:38:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah, please lend me some strength.

12 Rabiulawal

2010-02-26T10:45:00.007+08:00

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Salam Maulidur Rasul!!

::sy cinta dia::

Mari Berselawat banyak2.

Sing.

2010-02-25T20:22:00.005+08:00

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Peringatan: sila menyanyi dengan mendayu2 bernada sedih.

1, 2, 3..

Aku burung,
Di dalam sangkar,
Hidup terkurung,
Hatiku susah.

Ingin aku,
Terbang bebas,
Berkawan-kawan,
Tinggi Di Awan.

Ini adalah sindrom penat belajar dan ingin berhibur tetapi tidak boleh berlaku kerana harus belajar kerana masih banyak harus dibelajar dan masa semakin berlalu pergi meninggalkan daku keseorangan dilanda keserabutan.

Sy sedang mengisi borang tamat belajar sambil tersenyum berangan impian ingin grad menjadi kenyataan. :)

Oleh itu, selaku manusia yang sentiasa berhati baik dan ingin org laen berjaya, sila la jangan malu dan segan mendoakan kejayaan saya di dalam peperiksaan professional ijazah doktor perubatan yang akan datang mac ini.

Terima kasih didahulukan.

Ammuah (ni kiss gaya Anne).

:)

Interview.

2010-02-24T18:14:00.008+08:00

Today i went for job interview with SPA.

huwee.

okla.

not bad.

byk tnye pasal sexual education.

da agak da.

sbb my sijils byk berkaitan dgn sex education.

waktu preklinikal year ade buat program kempen pendidikan seks.

pastu klinikal years buat research psl sex knowledge and attitude.

pergi conference crite psl sex research lagi.

haish.

da nmpak mcm gile seks.

tp sbenarnye bukan.

nasib die tkde tnye kenape nk jd paediatrician bkn sexologist.

tp alhamdulillah both of my interviewers are nice

tuan haji tu comel mcm atuk yg comel. wewee.

dokter tu pun ok.

ini cik wina. sweet kan muke die. die ade boyfren name timy. timy pandai ckp korea. mesti timy pandai nyanyi lagu nobody versi korea. bley tk won?

soalan2 yg ditanya:

- jd pengawas dulu garang tk? nanti da kerja mrh2 staf.
- ketua sorak eh? (yg ni mcm kelakar. har har har)
- jadi ketua fotografi dekat sekolah mesti sbb suke bergambar.
- ade pernah encounter patient2 yg difficult tk?
- mcm mane nk treat patient yg ade sakit jantung?
- ape common diseases yg selalu jumper?
- selain hukm, ade buat praktikal dekat klinik2 or hosp lain?
- nanti nk specialize dlm bidang ape?
- berminat tk specialize dlm community health?
- nanti kalau on call busy semua macam mane?
- da ade pasangan?
- ape common diseases in Paeds?
- mcm mn nk treat AGE?
- kena bg antibiotic tk dlm AGE?
- pergi conference buat ape?

itu je. tkde satu malaysia. klinik satu malaysia. perlembagaan malaysia. name prime minister. and name ministy laen yg sebok dok hafal satu minggu.

my interview cume take 15 minutes je. pakdin tk puas ati. kuikuikui. memang lebih sekejap berbanding org laen. mungkinkah kerana senyuman manisku yg telah dipraktikkan berulang2. kakakaka.

Mari berthumbs up bersama saya!

Poyo.

2010-02-24T14:30:00.005+08:00

Benci gile dowh orang poyo!!

bunyi mcm tk puas hati.

tp sebenarnye puas hati je.

takde sape pun poyo.

rekaan semata2.

saje je tules mcm tu.

mcm best.

huahauhua.

gile da.

sbb tk dpt tgk movie My Name Is Khan.

rs mcm mengidam gile meroyan.

asek kena study je.

sbb mase berlalu semakin pantas.

dan otak ku berlalu semakin lembap.

and periksa da nk dekat.

oh no.

-__-

Phobia.

2010-02-23T12:18:00.005+08:00

Saya sedang bersikap rajin dengan mengulangkaji pelajaran Perubatan Dalaman (Internal Medicine) topik Endocrine keseorangan di bilik sambil mendengar lagu Avril Lavigne, When You're Gone. Gile jiwang. Walaubagaimanapun, apakah kelainan yang saye sedang cube untuk tonjolkan disini selain saya sedang study keseorangan sedangkan sy mempunyai study group mates tetapi rupe2nye study grup mates saye pergi interview kerja hari ni and saye punye esok oleh itu saya study sorang2.

Balik kepada kelainan yang sy ingin tonjolkan itu adalah sy sedang study di dalam bilik sambil memakai pakaian yang lengkap berseluar panjang coklat, bersweater lengan panjang ungu dan bertudung kelabu. kenapa kah saya begini?

Kerana phobia.

Ye saya phobia untuk berpakaian minimal di dalam bilik.

Kerana beberapa jam yang lalu rumah saya di hostel universiti ini telah dimasuki lelaki!

Bukan satu! Bukan 2. Tetapi entah berapa saye tk kire.

Takut tk??

Dah malu pabila saya buka pintu bilik dengan berpakaian minimal dan terlihat Pak Guard dll berada di ruang tamu. wth sy tk dengar dorang bg salam pun.

pastu terpaksa la membuat muke tebal, tutup pintu, pakai baju maksimum, buka pintu:

sy: kenape ye?
lelaki: nk buat spotcheck.
sy: bukan beberapa hari lalu sudah membuat spot chek?
lelaki: ade student bawa lelaki naik hostel. nk check bilik.
sy: mane tau? bile?
lelaki: ade org report. hari ni.
sy: ooooo...
lelaki: bilik lain ade org tk?
sy: tkde housemet sumer tkde. pergi interview, balik kg, bilik kosong.
lelaki: ade org dalam almari tk.
sy: tkde la.

haish.

tak tau ke sy perempuan single sejak beberapa bulan yang lalu?

kepada yang berkenaan, di harap perkara ini tidak la berulang lagi.

kerana tindakan anda telah menyusahkan pelbagai pihak.

dan mengundang saya phobia untuk berpakaian minimal di bilik.

dahla sekarang malaysia sedang musim panas.

gi mana ni ibu2 bapak2.

bikin gawat donk.

sekian, terima kasih.

p/s: jangan bergosip.

Vomit. (for real)

2010-02-20T23:05:00.009+08:00

My day started with me taking Ponstan a.k.a Mefenamic Acid a.k.a analgesia a.k.a painkiller due to throbbing unilateral headache i had since yesterday morning.

The mistake that I made was swallow those tablets without taking meal prior to it when it is obviously stated on the bottle, "Avoid taking this medicine on an empty stomach."

So what happen next?

I felt so nauseated since then and i almost cancel the plan to go to my school's reunion when Safiyya arrived at my house to pick me up.

It was progressively worsening along the time i was in the car that Safiyya almost freak out i would throw up and mess up her car. Buwahaha.

We stopped by Farah's house to pick her. And i immediately ask for direction to the nearby toilet in her house. There, i vomited 7 times. Yup, i count it. The vomitus contains grape cordeal drink and some bits of cekodok which i ingested after i took the tablets. The feeling was horrible at the beginning but it gets better towards the end.

I felt so much better that i asked Farah to serve me some food in her house. And she gave me this super delicious cake that I thought she made it on her own but she's not instead she bought the super delicious cake from Tesco. It was oh-damn-i-forgot-what-it's-name cake with daim chocolate fillings. Gile sedap weyh.

Ok itu je untuk hari ni kerana sudah tired.

Take home messages for today are:

1. Baca arahan luar botol ubat betul2 and patuhila arahan tersebut untuk menjamin kesejahteraan bersama.

2. Kalau ade young boy complain of testicular pain, severe, acute onset unbearable pain, with no history of fever or infection, and on examination nampak red swollen testis which is abnormally located (die ke atas sikit and nampak pelik malah abnormal) with absence of cremasteric reflex, maka suspectla Testicular Torsion. It is an emergency case and harusla tolak ke OT segera kerana kalau lambat lebih 6 jam boleh mati organ penting tersebut. Ok?

3. Bahagia itu boleh dicari. Sila la cari kebahagiaan anda. And tolongla berbuat baik sesama manusia. Kerana jadi jahat, egomaniac, dendam dan segala sifat mazmumah tu tak baik.

Sekian.

Selamat malam.

Mimpi indah ya sayang!

Azyan.

2010-02-19T00:29:00.013+08:00

All work and no play makes Jaja a dull girl.

With a strong belief in that particular sentence, i non accidentally joined a surprise birthday bash for dear sweet 23 Azyan Syazwan held at one of the famous fast food branch existed in Taman Connaught Cheras, The Old McDonald.

The master event planner was none other than hers truly sweet ever boyfriend, Mr Cakoi.

I do not know his real name.

The assistant of the day was Alia who hired me and fellow study groupmates with no payment to help with the preparations.

I donated 1/2 of my saliva and 1/4 of deoygenated air to inflate all the balloons.
Alhamdulillah, thankful to God i am born with good lungs.

After the candle has been lightened for 10 minutes or so, Azyan arrived blindfolded and guided by Mr Cakoi.

Hasni, Alia, Fahmi & Hannah, Azyan, Me, Wani

Since Abg Sedara a.k.a Hanif a.k.a Hasni's Boyfriend just turn 25 on the day before, we decided to give him another chance to re-celebrate his birthday.

As a conclusion,
birthday party is a fun event no one should not miss.

my favourite photo of the day

Not to forget, the take home messages are:

1. Do not eat fast food as it is not healthy.

2. Do not eat late at night because you may develop abnormal fat at certain area.

3. Put in Romantic & Sweet under future husband's criteria list after Solat 5 Waktu.

Toodles~

D5.

2010-02-17T08:04:00.005+08:00

Oh sekarang sy amatlah penat kerana berusaha dari pagi ke malam membaca buku.

Memang menguji kesabaran dan kekentalan naluri betul pabila hobiku adalah covering the bed.

Bergelen2 nescafe diminum untuk mencegah kemengantukan dan daya hasutan syaitan al durjana.

Dan tetibe rajen gile pegi wad di kala cuti smpai masuk berita perdana tv1 di bawah segmen "Bekerja di Musim Perayaan". da ckp da tk bekerja, tp wartawan itu nk jugak.

Hari ni ade 3 session jumpe dengan dokter untuk praktis bakat mengexamine patient dan mengformulasi diagnosis.

Sekarang ni bile jumpe mane dokter tengah jalan conversation nye sumer same:

Hi, Doctor! are u free any time this week or next week? do u mind observe me and my frens doing short case? can or not dr? can la eh? ok!

Dan kadang2 penat.

Tapi nk jadi Doctor kena de stamina.

Bangun pagi, gosok gigi, cuci muka, mandi pagi.

Lepas tu kena rajen siot.

Takpe2.

Sebulan je lagi.

and then can cuti and sleep all day long like nobody's business.

Bak kata pepatah,

Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang2 kemudian.

Renung2kan la.

Oh ye gmbr diatas di amek 3-4 years ago dekat library UKM kampus kl. study dengan marlina and hannah.

huhu.

gile skema dan ayu sejak dulu lagi.

buahahaha.

Doakan sy ye kawan2!.

CNY.

2010-02-14T07:11:00.009+08:00

XIN NIAN KUAI LE

GONG XI FA CAI

Hong Bao Na Lai!

(Red Envelope, please!)

My 5 memories of Chinese New Year:

1. The sound of firecrackers (mercun cine warne merah tu) on the night before CNY in my neighbourhood. Rase mcm nk pekak pun ade. Sesape yang tengah tido mesti terjaga gile. It was annoying but at the same time best. Kalau tk dengar, rase "Ala tk bestnye.."

2. Raya rumah kwan sekolah rendah Michelle Tan Hui Hwa. Da suruh die keep her dog away da awal2. Pastu ayah die kasi angpau. Wee.

3. Tgk tarian singa. Dung dung ca ke kanan. Dung dung ca ke kiri. Cantik. Selalu ade 2 ekor singa comel warna merah ngn putih. Ni pun selalu ade kat rumah. Pastu jiran tu nanti tk sapu rumah sebab bad luck.

4. Gi raya rumah Tan Huey Wun pastu die offer Jolly Shandy. And i said, tk la i tk boleh minum. She said, 1 percent alcohol only. Me, kenot la even 0.01 percent.

5. Aunty cine jiran lame suke hantar makanan. Biskut butter yang paling diminati. Bibi pun dulu suke anta makanan waktu Deepavali.

Ok. Selamat Beraya kawan2 ku sekalian.

Jangan lupe nanti balik study for exam.

XOXO

D1.

2010-02-13T18:52:00.004+08:00

Huwahahaha.

Hari ni bermula la study month yang ditunggu2.

30 days of books before the pro exam datang mengganas.

Tetapi.

Sekarang ni cuaca sangat membimbangkan.

Panas gile la.

Kenot study anything.

Rase mcm dalam citer mat salleh.

Diorang lazing around je during summer.

Nak hire orang gaji weh.

Sape nk?

Rm 0.00 per hour.

Letak je berapa byk kosong nk letak.

Haish yoh.

Ngantuk la pulak.

Nak tido kali ke lima pade hari ini.

Wee.

Dank.

Bye.

Kindergarten.

2010-02-11T22:45:00.010+08:00

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Today on beautiful eleventh of February, i went to visit a kindergarten.

(Jeng jeng jeng)

To teach the kiddos on certain issues of life.

(Hoho)

Bunyi mcm serius je.

(Huwee)

Tp tk pun.

(Kuikuikui)

Pergi menaiki ~~lambo~~ van.

*patutnye kat sini ade video showing us taught the kids to sing a song. tp the vid kenot be uploaded so kenot la show you guys how awesomeness i sing with funny gesture.

Pastu kena ajar gosok gigi. Lawak.

Me: Ok, kte gosok gigi. mcm ni bulat bulat bulat (sambil buat mcm upin and ipin). Apesal mcm pelik je. Atiqah, mcm mane nk ajar ni. Nah amek. awak ajar la.

Lepas tu tiqah take over sebab tgk i da lost dan terbagi ajaran sesat.

Pastu abang shan ajar cara pemakanan supaya adik2 selim sentiasa.

Tiqa: Piza ni tk bagus. tk boleh mkn banyak2. nanti ge--muk.

Adik: Kakak sy kan die mkn piza byk2. Pastu die gemuk.

*kids say the darndest thing

Kakak ying shan ajar pasal road safety.

Teringat waktu ying shan cerita memori waktu kecil.

Ying shan: when i was little, i only eat and sleep. no run run.

Beng siong: no wonder la you look like this.

Ying shan: ya la. so that no guys will go after me. Because if they do, then i have to run run and then i will get more slim. Then more guy will go after me.

All: Hahaha.

Pastu buat praktikal road safety.

Oh sy sungguh gemuk disitu.

Perlu membeli shuwing gam untuk exercise muke kasi selim.

Look, we have traffic lights, jejantas.

My role was a driver bus.

Gile hot siot.

Pastu buat exercise hentam keromo.

Abes.

~ The End ~

Balik tu ade assessment ngan prof.

Alhamdulillah shukur nikmat, ok la.

Kangen.

2010-02-09T01:47:00.006+08:00

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Pernah tak rasa rindu kat orang mcm nk mati?

Pernah tk?

Rs nak nyanyi lagu jiwang je sentiasa.

Pastu tk mkn sbb tk rs lapar.

Pastu tknk mandi sbb rs wangi.

Pastu tk boleh tido sebab caffeine.

Pernah tk?

Best tk agak2nye rs rindu ni?

Best kalau berbalas.

Tak best kalau rindu sorang2 tk berbalas.

Rs sengsara.

Seperti menunggu hari2 untuk final exam.

So Encik-ku sayang,

bile awak nk rindu saya pulak?

asyek sy je rindu awk ni.

tkyah buat gaya comel2 pk2 mcm tu.

sbb sy akan sentiasa menyukai awak.

walaupun suara awak nyanyi tkdela sedap mane kan.

tetapi bukan itu yg sy cari dlm diri awak.

tetapi kehenseman ternyata yang kau miliki.

chewah.

ingat tk valentine lepas lepas ku luahkan ku cinta kamu.

and u said u heart me too.

walaupun tk ikhlas tp ku tetap gembira.

2 years and counting gile bayang.

ku kan setia sentiasa.

terima kasih kerana menjadi satu2nye sumber inspirasi sy untuk tidak merindui orang2 yang tidak boleh dirindui.

mmuah.

muahaha

bengong da.

after double shot of caffeine.

amek ko.

da tk boleh tido.

dahla de assessment esok kul 8 a.m

doakan sye ye kawan2.

sy da freak out nih.

lalala~

bye.

Terima Kasih Datuk!

2010-02-06T16:58:00.001+08:00

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click photos for larger view.

lawak la ko adek.

:D

Matahari.

2010-02-02T09:15:00.000+08:00

Goodmorning people!

Rise and shine!!

May ur day filled with joy,warmth and laughter.

:-D

Nomad.

2010-01-31T16:16:00.004+08:00

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This is written straight from the heart. (or brain.)

One thing that i dont like about travelling is because i do not know how to pack light.

even for a short distance.

like home.

Whenever i went back to hostel i would bring this whole set of my closet from home with me.

and the situation will be the same when i go back home.

i will bring back most of my shoes, my shirts, my jeans, my baju kurungs, my kebayas.

gees. going back for raya is one of the hardest time of all.

and you should see Ming Wai's reaction when he saw me with my oversized luggage bag when i went to Japan last year for a week.

It just i do not know how to make a decision when it comes to which one of the shoes/clothes/jeans that i need the most because i need all of them.

i mean cmon, how can you travel with only a pair of black flat shoes and expect them to fit in all occasions.

i would like to wear t shirt and jeans and sneakers when im going for shopping spree because i know i must have a very good blood circulation around my foot as i will walk and run and stand for a long time.

and i would like to wear a cute dress with jeans and a pair of heels when i m going for outing with my friends as i know i will take a lot of photos and there is a chance of me meeting some gorgeous guy in shopping mall who is potentially to be my soulmate in this life. so i need to look good with a pair of heels or at least a wedges.

and i would like to let my toes breathe freely by wearing a sandal when i go out for dinner at stall at night.

and the choice of each shoes must be appropriate with each clothes that i wear. and each clothes that i wear must be appropriate with which place im going to.

can you see how important it is to have all your stuff with you all the time??

other than that,

i need to bring my laptop in case i want to online or watching movies during my free time.

i must also bring some books in case out of sudden i feel that i am stupid and i need to increase my knowledge to prevent my brain from atrophy.

and not to forget my guitar. tho i rarely play it, i still need to bring it just in case i feel like play it. buahaha.

can you see how complicated it is?

i do not make it complicated.

it is naturally complicated.

and im trying to live with it.

Lyn has new nickname for me, Nomad.

Happy :)

2010-01-30T23:26:00.004+08:00

3 things that lighten, brighten, lit up my day today:

1. my new hairdo. finally i did it. no, finally i let someone did it. hohohohohooooo.

2. i found my lost watch. the one my mom bought for me. can u believe it was resting peacefully at the kitchen all this while. and after being lost for the second time, i found it again. we r so ade jodoh yang panjang, sayang. yay!!

3. watching movie Bandslam. lagu die best. wee. wee. wee.

Esok nak gi mkn Besken Roben la.

Strap.

2010-01-29T13:29:00.001+08:00

Notice anythng new?

The new hp strap.

Haha.

Tiqah bot for me as my nex year's bday present.

Huahua.

Dan sesungguhnya sy memangla kurang pekerjaan di slimriver.

Sekian.

Menyusu.

2010-01-28T07:48:00.001+08:00

Sy sedang tube feeding preterm baby using her mummy's expressed breast milk.

Oleh itu, sile panggil sy ibu susuan skarg.

Nk pnggl hot momma pn tkd masalah.

Muahaha :-P

Susu.

2010-01-26T12:53:00.001+08:00

Hepy birthday Yap Soo Shu!

She ws post on call n sleepng in the ward when we cme singing bday song fr her.

Blur gle budak ni.

Anyway may u get out of the blur zone soon~

Peace.

2010-01-26T12:48:00.001+08:00

Me : Umar, i thnk i want t g there ths year. To find peace.

Umar : alhamdulillah. bagusla.

Me : Hm..mcm Nur Kasih.

Umar : erk..hoho.

My soul is lost.
My heart is missing.
I need t find em bck.

Jom Siam.

2010-01-24T11:55:00.012+08:00

Satu hari, saya ajak Zatil Aqmar atau name manjanye Atel atau name org aslinya Jatel, pergi Siam.

dulu2 memang impian saye nk nikah kat siam.
tgk mat saleh cool je nikah kat vegas. tp dulu la.

Kitorang pegi nek kete je.

Gile pandai bwk kete siot pegang satu tgn.

Pastu jalan kaki.

Tadaa! Da smpai Siam!!

10 minutes drive je dari HUKM.

Siam adalah satu tempat makan femes yang selalu dikunjungi oleh orang2 HUKM. n org sekeliling dekat area tu. Sebab die best.

Sebab die ade nasi goreng kampung yang sedap. Dan makanan2 laen yg sedap. tapi saye suke nasi goreng kampung je. sebab personality saya memang setia kepada yang satu. Buahaha.

Pastu die ade abg siam-ke-abg-kelantan-tk-kesah-la-tp-die-pandai-ckp-siam yang best, baik, sopan dan pandai kire2 matematik dalam beberape saat je mcm otak die tu ade bhn yg sme macam dlm kalkulator.

Ade nmpak suasana siam tk kat situ. haha. Selalu ramai org. hari ni tk pulak.

Muke Atel suke dpt pegi Siam.

Me: Abg, kedai ni name ape eh? (suke hati je panggil die abg entah2 die lg mude)
Abg Siam: Kedai ni nama Din.
Me: Oh ye. Name die bukan Siam eh?
Abg Siam: Kedai Din.
Me: Owh. ok.

Suka hati korang je panggil kedai tu kedai Siam. Name kedai tu kedai Din la. Tapi tk eksotik kan namenye. Hahaha.

ToothFairy

2010-01-22T16:54:00.008+08:00

Definition:
A fairy that gives a child money or gifts in an exchange for a baby tooth that has fallen out.

ME

+

WINGS

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DRESS

=

TOOTHFAIRY yang comel. huweewit~

oh toothfairy comel da tersangkut kat baju pink berambu ramba.

Anyway,

Dulu kan waktu i pasang braces, 4 of my teeth were pulled out.

And i still keep em.

So rase2 nye kan if i put them under my pillow.

I still dapat tk kekayaan pada esok hari nye?

Ke toothfairy just give it to a child?

Ape2 pun, to all my MBs:

JOM MUVIE JOM!!

Bahagia.

2010-01-19T22:04:00.010+08:00

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Perasaan yang bahagia adalah bile:

- pakai seluar jeans terasa longgar dan pakai kebaya tak rasa ketat.

- dapat makan makanan yg gile sedap. oh, indonesian food aku jatuh cinta dengan mu.

- beli baju yang awesome dengan harga diskaun yg paling termurah.

- berkumpul dengan keluarga dan sedara mara bercerita pasal kenangan waktu lalu.

- berjaya kemas bilik yang tonggang langgang mcm kapal tongkang pecah.

- dipuji oleh professor dengan ikhlas. atau tk ikhlas pun tkpe.

- siap case write up. and other assignments yang serabutkan kepala hotakku yang da semakin tepu dengan segala informasi.

- maen bunga api di hari raya.

- make up cantek2 and dress up untuk dinner.

- bergigam dgn teman2 gigam bersama photographer almost pro, iyas.

- bercuti dgn kawan2 dkt obersea.

- menang ape2. wic is mcm jarang je. huwaa.

- terkejut dengan surprises yang tk dijangka.

- Evan bls msg dekat forum. aww.

- berbual2 dgn lala dekat wall FB gune kata ganti nama kau-aku walaupun in real life we used kite-awk. gile sweet.

- main lagu baru dekat gitar smbil perasan best.

- dpt msg: " Sayang, i miss you. "

- ade orang hot ajak keluar. ini sgt bodoh. haha. adeke org hot ajak keluar? hahah. rs nk ketawa.

- jatuh cinta. hmm. jatuh. tergolek2. pastu tk boleh bgn. sebab lembik sgt. sbb gemuk sgt.

- dpt bercuti 3 hari seminggu dan bersenang lenang di hari Ahad.

- lepas bc al-quran.

- dpt buat ibadah dgn khusyuk, ikhlas and sempurna.

- rs dekat dengan Tuhan.

Banyak benda yang boleh bgi perasaan bahagia.
Tapi waktu ni hati tk rs bahagia.
Hmm.

Clueless.

2010-01-16T12:33:00.004+08:00

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Tibe2 rase clueless how to live a life.

Tibe2 rase clueless on the purpose of life.

Tibe2 rase clueless what to do.

Tibe2 rase clueless what is important.

Tibe2 rase clueless interpreting own feelings.

Tibe2 rs clueless.

Pernah tk rs perasaan tu?

Mcm dalam exam bile clueless tk tau nk jwb soalan.

Cume this time it's not involving exam.

But life.

I'm clueless with life.

Mungkin ni penangan tk cukup tido.
Buat exam forensik laju2.
On call lagi hari ni.
ade perasaan yg tk best.

Stress.

2010-01-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

Bila aku stress, aku garu.

Bile aku garu, aku gatal.

Bile aku gatal, aku garu lagi.

Bile aku garu lagi, badan jadi merah2.

Bile badan jadi merah, allergic reaction pun appear.

Bile badan naek kesan allergy, aku lagi stress.

and the viscious cycle continue.

smpai aku rs aku nk tdo supaya sumer benda ni nyah dari sistem otakku.

pastu esok aku stress lagi sbb aku tido mlm ni.

bodoh la tau.

and bile aku stress, aku suke ckp benda yg tk bermanfaat.

haish.

haish.

AARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

bodo.

astaghfirullahalazim.

"sayang, relax. kalau u fikir sumer all at once memang la stress. try prioritize things. do it one by one. i know u can do it."

gatal la wei.

Berat.

2010-01-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

Ingin tahu macam mane untuk mendapat berat badan yang diingini?

sila ikuti perbualan berikut:

amar: kak, akak nmpk berisi la skarang?
(yela dulu wktu die slalu jumpe 3 thn lepas. wktu tu bdn ku selim, perut ku flat screen.)
me: (da panik). berisi? akak da diet da. berisi lagi ke?
amar: tk. ok la berisi cmni.
me: (kembang). oh ye. thank you.
amar: ape rahsianye?
me: rahsia? rahsia ape?
amar: rahsia nk naikkan berat?
me: hahaha.
amar: serius ni nk tau. ape rahsianye?
me: rahsianye adalah jeng jeng jeng. boyfren.

ya. jawapan untuk menggemukkan badan adalah mencari kekasih hati. nanti gi dating, kejenye asek mkn je. gi tgk wayang, mkn lagi. bile bahagia, mestila selera bertambah, tk gitu. lagi bagus, cari kekasih hati yang dah kerja. selalunye dorang pemurah dan memang suke je nk bw gi mkn.

tp org yg badan da over skit berisi, jgn risau ade juga solutionnya iaitu, breakup la dengan kekasih hati. pasti akan hilang seleramu dan susut badan mu. tkyah mkn pape. mkn hati je. itula regime dietku sekarang.

atau, bg pelajar medik ukm tahun ke lima kebawah, sekiranya masuk posting paediatrik, silalah request untuk duduk under team Prof R. pasti tidak jemu telinga anda mendengar nutrisi yang bagus untuk anda dan anak2 anda supaya tidak underweight mahupun overweight.

untuk pelajar medik ukm tahun ke lima keatas. anda jangan risau. nanti secara tk langsung nye, anda akan kurus pabila serabut memikirkan exam dan tiada masa untuk makan sebab study secara extensive. pastu kalau lulus dengan cemerlang, usah risau juga. mkn la sebanyak2nya ketika waktu bercuti. kerna bile da start keje pasti badan mu akan susut semula. trust me. ur life would be makan tk kenyang, mandi tk basah, tido tk lena. sebab it will be busy as hell, kan. so dont worry ye kwn2. nanti bile gi majlis kawan2, pasti muat baju2 kebaya lama.

itu sahaja tips untuk gemuk dan kuruskan badan dengan efektif dr sy pada hari ini.

sehingga bertemu lagi di masa akan datang.

selamat mencuba!

bye.

p/s: lin, please stop calling me baby elephant. baby elephant tu weight die berdouble bubble dari kite yang beautiful and comel ni k.

OnCall.

2010-01-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

Lalala.

Ngantk.nk mati.

Jm blik.jm blik.

Tdo.kt blik.atas katil.bwh cmfrter.

Huargh.

I want to sleep. :-(

Oh Suami.

2010-01-07T18:19:00.005+08:00

.
Kalau satu hari nanti,

sy kawen dengan awak,

atau org laen,

pastu lepas setahun lebih kurang cmtu,

kte akan ade anak bersama,

sy takkan sekali-kali,

due kali pun tk kan,

bg anak kte ikut keputusan sendiri,

bile lepas die balik tadika,

atau bile cikgu puji die pandai kat sekolah rendah,

atau bile die dapat keputusan terbaik waktu SPM,

die ckp:

"Mother, i want to be a DOCTOR".

no.

No.

NO.

Sy tkkan biarkan ia terjadi.

Sebab tk best pun.

Huwahahaha~.

NICU.

2010-01-04T21:59:00.006+08:00

v
the abbreviation mcm stands for Nice To See You.
tapi sebenrnye bukan. huhu. its not nice to see u. merepek sudah.

anyway, NICU stands for Neonatal Intensive Care Unit.
(neonate = bayi yang umur dari 1 hari hingga 1 bulan).

::stetoskop die pink!::

i oncall sini mlm ni.

kat sini best.

byk bayi2 pramatang bermastautin.

tgk diorg tido syok je.

pastu kecik je comel gile.

nmpk innocent.

hati rs tenang.

tanpa hasad dengki.

kdg2 terasa dokter2 yg jadi neonatologist ni agaknye memilih untuk mengorbankan jiwa dan raga untuk makhluk2 tuhan yg kecik ni sebab da penat and malas nk deal dgn org dewasa. byk complaint. baby tk complaint. die nanges je. pastu tk byk meragam.

overall, hr ni byk belajar.

thanks to the sweetest ever dr Shareena.

n thanks to Bernard for being so sweet to take the photo of me listening to the patient's heart using the cutest pink stethoscope ever. hee~

xoxo.

Bummed.

2010-01-03T22:00:00.007+08:00

v

pernah tk rs ingin bercerita.

tp tk boleh nk cerita.

sbb tkde org untuk dicerita.

dan sbb tkde org akan fhm cerita.

atau cerita tu tk sesuai untuk dicerita.

hm.

satu perasaan yg tk best.

i just wish..

*sigh*

anyway,

Hepy Monday everyone!

Laut.

2010-01-03T16:42:00.008+08:00

v
i love beach.
(but not bitch.)

thousand gratitude to God for not making the day rainy or sunny. the weather was nice.
thanks to wani for making it happens.
thanks to adan for drove us there and invited us to his house.
thanks to ayah adan for letting us mandi solat and berehat kat teratak sri nadia.
thanks to mak adan for bg tumpang mkn lunch beraneka lauk.
thanks to ched for the lovely cupcakes eventho bukan ko yg buat tp kakak ko yg buat kan.

Everybody call 911.

2010-01-01T21:46:00.008+08:00

sekiranya anda adalah seorang beginner atau makhluk pelupa seperti daku sila la ambil gmbar di tempat parking seperti di bawah untuk mengelakkan masa disia2 kan mencari kereta di parking lott.

Lepas study grup separa hari tadi yang sngt membina dan menjadikan sy lebih berilmu daripada biasa, ade org ajak kuar.

gi Garden yang sngat cantek didekorasi dengan hiasan krismas bermutu tinggi.

tujuan keluar pada hari ini adalah untuk mengkaji hubungan antara laryngitis (radang larinks) dengan penggunaan suara melebihi daripada ton normal.

oleh itu, tiada tempat yang lebih sesuai untuk membuat kajian tersebut selain daripada,

REDBOX!!

huweee.

Subjek jemputan laen adalah:

1. Ched

kesian die kena pakse: ei ko duk sini cpt, nk amek gmbr.

2. Ida

this is my housemet. we have been housemets for 3 years. wee.

3. Cali.

tho cali was my senior in medical school. tk pernah pun tegur die dulu before die grad. huahaua. jadi kawan kat facebook dengan die pun cuz he's a good friend of my good friend, encik umaroochi. and org kate tk kenal maka tk suke. dulu rs die cm senior yang poyo wtf kete ade alarm ckp2, jln bajet macho siot. tp bile da kenal rs die senior yang ade suare sedap, pandai shake bon2, gile berparti, pandai bergaul and make friends, boleh nyanyi lagu nora di persimpangan dilema tnpe nmpk lembut dan drive honda accord wtf. atau secara ringkasnye, he is okay.

today we sang a LOT of dance songs. seronok. sean kingston. lady gaga (my fav), black eyed peas and ape ntah lagu lg yang encik due org tu terjerit2 smpai rs da lebih daripada normal value decibel bunyi yng blg diterima oleh telinga ku.naseb baek due2 suara sedap. thanks to cali tetibe rs mcm de kat konsert black eyed peas.

overall, we had fun. kesimpulan daripada kajian adalah, tiada laryngitis belaku kepada semua subjek. so i wud recommend for future research to study on the relationship between incidence of laryngitis and the prolonged usage of vocal cord in higher range note.

before balik, pegi solat meminta keampunan dan singgah subway. dan sy tk beli ape2 di subway sebab bajet berdiet tk makan malam walaubagaimanapun perut tetap maintain 6 fats sbb mls buat sit up hr2 seperti yang di suggest si observant dr Tay.

And jom sumer org, berdoa bersama2 supaya weather baik pade esk hari untuk sy bermain di luar menikmati keindahan alam semula jadi ciptaan Tuhan and then i can sing when there's sunshine, we'll shine together. aminn.

I think today is a great start to an awesome year for moi. hope it remains great and awesome and happy and blessed. despite the fact tk dpt terima ajakan my sister gi london sbb da kena start keje by that time. huish.

That's all.

Daa.

xoxo.

Morning Everyone.

2010-01-01T10:16:00.001+08:00

Im having breakfast with my study grup mets in oldtown and discussing about forensic.

Sbb 16 ad exam. Wee.

Hope tday will filled with great moments.

And congrats to the newlywed!

Happy New Year!

2009-12-31T23:28:00.001+08:00

An hour to go.

I am so celebratng the cming of nw year in ward.

Budak2 len da blik. Kurang asam. X supportive r korg. Wait la til ur PRHO time.

Shan said, "its ok. U hv bernard t celebrate nw yer with."

Tp.tk kesah pun.

At least im starting new year by doing smethng gud.

Lalala.

I dnt hv any nw yer resolution.

Cuz i believe if u want t chnge, u shud chnge rite away. Knp nk tnggu 1 januari dtg br nk berazam mcm2 kn.

Im just hoping t hv a blessd year. God, please love me n olweys protect me frm harm n evil.

Oh daku da mengantk siots.

Happy holiday ols!

May u hv a great year ahead!

xoxo

PRHO

2009-12-29T23:32:00.007+08:00

its actually stands for pre registered house officer. (agaknye, im not sure. aha)

each final year student who undergo paediatric posting needs to be PRHO for 1 week for the team that he/she is in.

the task is basically doing what the house officer usually do. clerk new case. update old case. present the case to MO or specialist, join the rounds etc.

but i think me and naim totally misinterpret the short form to

Party Rockstar House Officer.

This morning:

teoh: Jaja, u punye mate bengkak. tk cukup tido eh?
jaja: oh ye? (dlm hati, yeah cuz i was partying last night. this is not actually bengkak due to stay up late studying. its eyeliner stain sbb smalam tk bersihkan properly before tdo)

This afternoon:

naim: prof td mrh2 kate everything dont know. die kate bukan susah pun, take history, bc buku bla bla bla.
me: nasib baik die tk tnye, naim dont u read book? what did u do last nite?
naim: haha. (party like a rockstar)

tp ktorang td stay kat ward lewat jugak. i stay until 6.15 p.m. student len da balik at 5 da. naim ade oncall hr ni. mesti ngantuk giler mamat tu.

but i really had fun last nite.

we werent really partying. just a normal informal dinner with a bunch of friends and full of laughter. until at one point i thought someone put something in the cake that cause everyone to be so high. damn. i watched too much beverly hills.

da lame tk hang out with that group of friends.

kalau fazrul dtg, cukup se team my study grup during 4 year. last year memang byk eating outside.

overall,

nice place.

delicious food. (esp the Alexis cake ;p)

good company.

what else u can ask for.

anyway, it was naim's surprise bday party.

for more, cekdisout.

~

2009-12-29T15:45:00.001+08:00

Currently im in ward mengantk gle tnggu doctor's round.

Today, tolerating professor's nagging well.

Brthn. 2 mre days to go. Wee~

To u, happy birthday.

Awesome

2009-12-28T19:04:00.003+08:00

.

doing PRHO on first week is Awesome.

Being scolded by professor on first day during first presentation is Awesome.

Get a call from someone i like about something i do not like is Awesome.

Missing someone who hates me is Awesome.

Everything happens in one day is totally Awesome.

p/s: i forgot to put NOT in front of every Awesome.

Kanak2 adalah adorable creature

2009-12-27T22:04:00.011+08:00

.
seperti saye.

starting tomorow sy akan bertemu dengan kanak2 lebih byk kali daripada hari biasa sehingga mungkin akan terlintas di hati ini ingin mempunyai anak sendiri dan seterusnye memulakan pencarian bakal super suami sejati. weewit.

atau dipendekkan crite, tomorrow i'll be starting my paediatric posting.

its one of my favourite clinical posting.

i mean who doesnt love playing with babies?

well if u dont, ur loss. babies are the most adorable bable sweet chumellicious living creature/human form in this whole wide universe. minus the poo poo smell and the hi pitch cry, of course.

anyway, one of the skills that i need to master in dealing with this cute little creature is assessing their developmental skills. to see whether their development is according to their age. atau terlebih genius which is sadly rarely occur atau terlembap sedikit which is sadly sometimes occur due tor varying reasons.

benda2 yang perlu dibawa selain senyuman yang menawan dan ilmu yang melimpah ruah ketika berdepan dengan pesakit2 kecil ini adalah seperti berikut:

1. bola berambu ramba merah yang ade tali untuk goyang2kan die macam bandul

kegunaan: untuk menguji penglihatan bayi. merah adalah warna yang paling cepat ditangkap oleh mata bayi. so bukan lembu sje tertarik dengan warna merah. n i never say baby and lembu adalah same eh. tk eh. jgn memanipulasi teks ku.

2. brg mainan yng bile picit mengeluarkan bunyi yang nyaring seperti ikan yang di bawa mandi di bath tub. eh silap itik. itik yg comel. bukan ugly duckling yang ditinggal ibu die pastu bile da besar rupe2 nye die angsa yang cantik. so baby yang tk comel tu jangan dihina mungkin nanti da besar die jadi model cantik rupawan.

kegunaan: untuk menguji pendengaran bayi dengan jarak below 100 meter. mcm nyorokkan mainan tu pastu picit kasi kuar bunyi. pastu tgk bayi tu cari ke tk mainan tu.

3. rattle. yang comel dan berbunyi. dan ada tmpat pegang.

kegunaan: untuk menguji pegangan baby. bagi kat baby suh die pegang. bunyi2 kan sket. sbb baby suke barang yg berbunyi2. tgk die pegang kuat ke men cmpak2 ke.

4. biji kecik yang amek dari tasbih yang da jrg diguna. atau gune kismis kalau tkde/syg tasbih.

kegunaan: untuk menguji penggunaan jari telunjuk dan ibu jari bayi untuk melihat kematangan jari jemarinye.

5. kiub2 berwarna warni menarik hati. teringat bob the builder.

kegunaan: nk tgk kepakaran kanak2 menyusun atur kiub2 dan kebolehan melaga2kan kiub dan kebolehan mencampak kiub. huhu

6. krayon. ini untuk kanak2. bukan bayi. nanti keje nye masuk mulut je.

kegunaan: nk tgk cr die pegang krayon. kalau da boleh pegang, tgk die boleh lukis pe, garisan ke,bulatan ke segitiga ke, lukis org lidi pastu tulis dokter comel ke.

7. set minum. sudu and cwn. warna pink itu mesti.

kegunaan: nk tgk social develpment die. da boleh kacau air ke, da boleh minum gune cwn tk. ni asek botol susu je keje.

8. buku abjad yang boleh dibaca atau dilihat gambar dan dikenalpasti oleh kanak2.

kegunaan: nk tgk budak ni kenal benda ke tk. boleh bace ke tk. tp budak2 skang ni bhs melayu tk pakai, english aje kindie nye.

Dan ini adalah contoh bayi yg mempunyai skil extraordinary, tkyah da kot assess development die.

boleh berenang seperti mermaid siot except tkde ekor.

my last 3 pesanan:

1. babies, please be nice to me in order for me to be nice to you. huhu. xoxo.

wei, ko yg kt sebelah kanan skali tuh jgn men tunjal2 kepale die.

2. jgn men jual beli bayi. tk paham aku. nanti bile anak tu da besar tnye mcm mn kelahiran die ko nk jawab mama beli adik kat org je rm20000.

3. pegi la tgk gmbr2 baby untuk mendapat ketenangan. insyaAllah. bayi suci murni tanpe sebarang dosa. bau baby. sniff sniff.

baby ni boleh mkn sbb die bukan baby betul. die dibuat drpd tepung dan brg2 buat cake. tp adeke org nk mkn baby.

ok itu shj.

da puas merepek.

lega hati ku.

muahahaha.

the end bebeh~

Merepek di kala fikiran terganggu.

2009-12-27T19:31:00.006+08:00

.
tomorrow is monday.

i hate monday.

i am siti hajar.

kesimpulan: siti hajar hates tomorrow.

and ekceli i hate today too.

cuz i hate u.

ok blh berenti merepek.

so, aktiviti mlm ini:

basuh baju dlm bakul.

amek baju dkat ampaian.

lipat baju msuk dlm almari.

bosan giler nak melayan hal2 pakaian ni.

pastu buat persiapan untuk posting paediatrik esk:

buat notes untuk study grup untuk stimulate perkembangan otak rkn2.

cari brg2 mainan kanak2 untuk stimulate perkembangan otak mrk.

cari baju2 yang bewarna warni untuk dipakai ke hospital esok untuk stimulate minda dan mood sendiri di hari isnin.

pastu tdo siot. esk kena bgn awal. bosan. bosan. bosan. mls.

but remember, siti hajar (bermonolog dalaman)

live life like there is no tomorrow.

maksudnye berehat saje dan tunggu kematian pade esok hari.

stop merepek untuk kali kedua.

maksudnye buat la sesuate kerja dengan bersungguh pada hari ini sperti tk sempat da untuk buat esoknye.

the choice is yours.

sekian.

salam.

The Second Puan

2009-12-26T16:58:00.005+08:00

Congratulation to Hazliza and husband!

Selamat menjadi the second person who is getting married in our batch.

Sekarang cik puan dina da ade teman nk bercerita pasal pil perancang dan suami. ;p

gurau ok.

semoga berbahagia selamanya dan sentiasa di redhai Allah SWT.

So, ade sesape nk kawen dengan saye??

tp bukan sekarang.

dtg lagi 2 thn.

sebelum mak sy kawen kan sy dengan calon menantu pilihan die.

Muahaha.

Cuti Krismas Di Kuala Lumpur.

2009-12-25T17:59:00.009+08:00

Bangun2 gosok mate. Cepat2 turun bwh dengan pijama yang ade gambar kambing biri biri putih. Gi straight dekat pokok yang da dihias semalam. Tgk bwh pokok tu cek ade tk hadiah untuk cik siti hajar yang comel. ikhlas dari pakcik santa. sambil cari2 tu diri bermonolog dalaman. mesti pakcik santa yang gemuk muke merah2 berjanggut putih pakai baju merah belt rs nk tercabut sbb perut boroi da letak hadiah kat bwh pokok ni sebab sy da menjadi seorang budak yang paling baik sekali dalam dunia ni. lagipun sy da sediakan susu putih iyek i dont like milk dengan biskut chipsmore dekat meja semalam. tengah cari cari cari cari tetibe bunyi lagu.

"im just a little bit caught in the middle.life is a maze.love is a riddle.."

terus terbangun dan mendapati diri berada di atas katil dan tk pakai pun baju pijama ade gambar kambing biri2 putih.

bc msg yang baru masuk.

"awk da bgn belum? jom gi breakfast."

So lepas mandi, solat subuh dan berdoa supaya tuhan mengampunkan dosa. siap2. pergi makan breakfast dekat restoren Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa Kg Baru. Tapi bukan dekat Kg Baru. dekat sebelah MMR 2. tempat sate samsuri tu.

Nasi lemak berlauk paru goreng dan udang sambal petai. slurrpp.
tapi sy tk mkn petai ye kawan2. secara kebetulan udang smbal yang sy suke ade petai.

udang pertama tahan pakai sudu garfu. udang kedua dan seterusnye da tk thn. sedap ok. terrase2 kelazatannye smpai sekarang. kopek udang beriya dulu. pastu basuh tgn. pastu makan balik pakai sudu garfu. lazat menjilat sudu.

Pastu pergi JJ Cheras Selatan. Bli tiket Sherlock Holmes.

Sambil tunggu ms tayangan, pergi window2 shopping smpai tershopping secara ala kadar.

terbeli sandal kuning pastu terus pakai sebab matching ngn baju. wee~
lepas ni boleh sesuai kan dengan beg kuning yg beli kat jakarta ari tu. huwee.

Pastu termasuk body shop pergi pakai lotion tester buat2 mcm tk pernah bau lotion tu sedangkan da test hampir setiap kali. and pergi teman wani shopping barang rahsia semate2 die nk dapat free gift botol air.

Solat zohor.

Then tercanguk depan pintu masuk tgv sambil makan popcorn karamel n minum vanilla coke. smbil tunggu tu smbil makan popcorn and tengok trailer movie akan datang. punye lambat die bagi msuk, smpai popcorn da tinggal separuh by the time duk dpan skrin tgk muke Robert Downey Junior.

Tapi best giler siot citer Sherlock Holmes. The combination of due actors itu sgt menarik hati. si kelakar bajet cool robert downey jr and si kacak bajet serius dan smart jude law. aww.

sgt2 menarik hati.

this is definitely one of my fav scene smbil dengar wani jerit2 kat sebelah. huhu.

habes wyg balik.

pegi basuh baju kat bilik shima smbil makan piza domino. die pelawa, makan la kan.

begitu la hari cuti krismas ku berlalu di siang hari.

dan ye saya tk sambut krismas.

dan saye tk percaya santa claus.

dan saye tkde pijama ade gmbr kambing biri2 putih.

tp mk sy ade sluar tidor gmbr kambing biri2 hitam.

haha.

Gudnite.