10 Things I’m Proud To Flex at 40

Not 40 yet… but with 3 months left till August, might as well embrace it. 

1. Got back my prepregnancy weight. I delivered a baby plus went through a phase of stress eating disorder during my master’s programme. And losing weight at this age is brutally difficult. So yeah I deserve a trophy.

2. My BMI is normal. Well, honestly the only time it wasn’t normal was when I was literally growing babies inside me.

3. I look somewhere between late 20s and early 30s, says ChatGPT. And I’ll take it, tho it sounds delusional.

4. People call me “boss” at work. IYKYK. #girlboss

5. At this age, I can buy whatever I want. But TBH i dont have a lot of wants. 

6. My parents are alive and healthy. This one feels bigger the older I get.

7. Still married. In this economy and generation? Lowkey an achievement.

8. My kids still adore me. One day they’ll think I’m annoying, so I’m enjoying this phase while it lasts.

9. I got my sugar levels go down from prediabetic to normal. Cholesterol… you’re next.

10. I can bend down and touch my toes without backpain or tight hamstring. Thanks to pilates.

There's a lot more I wanna achieve. Not sure if I should share them or keep it quiet so I don't jinx it.

I wanna be a mermaid.

40 is basically your 20s...just with better money, super early bedtimes and a whole bunch of supplements.

The Eid of Letting Go

It’s Arafah Day today.

And somehow, it took me almost 40 years to truly understand what this day is all about.

Alhamdulillah for time. Alhamdulillah for guidance. Alhamdulillah for the gentle reminders from Allah that often come exactly when we need them most.

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Fireplace

Whenever i doubt my capabilities, i keep surprising myself..

The dream that’s left of us

Are pictures in the ash

But I cant burn these memories trapped in my heart

Now all thats left of us

Is a love that I cant touch

All your empty promises break me apart

Mak

A quote I came across today that made me stop scrolling:

"Today your mother is 55 years old. If she lives until 70, you may only have 15 more years with her. If you only go home twice a year, that means you'll only see her 30 more times in the lifetime..Will it be enough?"

And suddenly, I felt my chest tighten. Because my mother is 71 this year...

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Send a text in a Family Whatsapp Group:

Semua dijemput hadir dtg makan di rumah for D3 birthday.

Also me on the morning of the day:

Havent decide on the food, the cake, the deco, the outfit. Can i cancel the invites 🫠 

Lets Keep Calm and Think

Body Changes At 40

 ..should i be worried or grateful?

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Tok

Found this pic while browsing through the old photos.

I'm so grateful all my children had the chance to meet their loving great grandma.

Just a few weeks after this photo was taken, she left us.

A memory I will cherish forever.

Miss you always, Tok.

Alfatihah to Tunku Mukminah Tunku Mohd Jiwa.

I Love You.

Dearest Dazrin,

Happy birthday to the most precious soul I have ever known. From the moment you came into my life, you filled my heart with a love so deep and unconditional that words could never fully describe it.

I hope your day is filled with warmth, laughter, and happiness, because you deserve every beautiful thing this world has to offer. No matter how much time passes, you will always be my little baby, the one who changed my life forever just by existing.

As you grow, I hope the world is always gentle to you. I hope kindness always finds you wherever life takes you, and that you are always deeply loved.

Thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. You are my greatest blessing and the most beautiful part of my life.

Your first cry into the world..

That's my baby, he's iconic.

 

Love you always and forever, Mommy. 

And one day, when you enter heaven, don't forget me, okay? 🤍

No One Noticed

 

Mood so mellow lately, i dont understand myself.

(update: its PMS)

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Drop Dead

The song is giving major young love nostalgia. Innocent, exciting and beautiful. 

 Been kissed and drop dead in the process. 

But.. NGL the feeling afterward is pure ecstasy. 

The most alive I’ve ever been. 

A random quote on the net says:

 “Feeling sad is temporary, being a girl with Master Degree is forever.” 💅🏻

Memory

Why do some memories fade easily, while the ones meant to be forgotten linger the longest..?

For someone who studies memory and treats those who lose it, perhaps I should already know the answer. Still I find it strange how much we understand about how memories are built and strengthened, yet so little about how they are undone. We refine techniques to preserve memory, but rarely study the art of erasing it.

Coffee Breath

Whenever I search songs for a picture of coffee on IG story, this song always pops up.

Coffee Breath by Sofia Mills

It has this nice melody. So yesterday I decided to listen to the full song.

It starts with a gentle guitar strum.

Down down down down down up down..

Babadam..bab bab ba dam.

Only when the verse comes in, it hits me this is actually a sad love song. Not really bout coffee. The lyrics are really something.. The soothing melody makes the lyric not sound as creepy 😬

“Call me Dahmer cause your heart’s so tasty”

…nevertheless this song got me hooked. 

The Makcik Era

This morning, I had a banana and oats for breakfast. 

Not nasi lemak. Not roti canai. 

BANANA and OAT.

Who is this girl?  Eh, sorry.. Who is this woman?

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